I am so sick of being SO sick . . .

Well as a way to wrap up this month in Blogs, I just wanted to leave a brief note as to what is going on in my life. Currently I am stuck laying on the couch (for the third straight day) finally being in a position for the first time in 24 hours that has not made me want to kill myself. I have been fighting this really really nasty cold since I came back from spring break last Sunday night. I have finally reached a peak (or so I hope) Thursday night. As a direct result from this peak I have slept virtually all day for the last two nights and been so sick that I physically can not move. Super exciting stuff yes?

Well one thing is for sure, regardless if I feel better or not, tomorrow is the day that I am going with Marcel to take my graduation pictures. This means that so much has to get done in order for me to be ready. I have to do my laundry tonight, figure out what I am going to wear, figure out how to do my hair and my makeup . . . blast. It is times that this that I wish that either 1) I was a guy (because they don't care about things like hair and makeup . . . or 2) that I actually LIKED taking pictures of me, but I don't because I HATE looking at myself in pictures, movie clips you name it. But oh well, this is something that needs to be done so I just have to grin and bear it. When I am able to, I will post some pics online.

Better get going, I have a lot to do today with no energy and progressively no time to do it in. Until next time . . . keep it real!

March, 2, 3, 4 . . .

So I just realized that it is almost the end of the month and I have not posted anything for the Merry month of March yet. So here we go . . . Not much has changed with me this month, I left my beloved job at Borders on February 27th because I could not handle working two jobs, 19 credits and graduation and grad school stuff all on top of my externship. Whew. It still feels kinda weird but not as bad as I thought it would be (probably because I am not in there nearly as much any more, in fact I think I have only been in there 3 times since I left). It has been nice because it means I can go home on what ever weekend I want since my other job is closed on weekends. I have been keeping busy with school and work and can not wait until graduation day. 47 DAYS AND COUNTING!!!

Something really big happened in my family a few weeks ago, my younger brother announced his ENGAGEMENT! I am very excited to welcome Racheal and her soon to be born (the day of graduation is here due date, so lets hope she goes before or after that) son to be named Matthew (The middle name is still to be discussed), last I heard they are going for September - November for a date so I will keep you posted. Racheal is a really sweet girl and she is so fun to be around.

My sister's birthday is coming up in just 8 short days, she will be 24. Her kids are growing like weeds and still as cute as ever. Mom has been slammed with weddings with even more to come, the latest was my cousin Trica's wedding last week.

Plans so far include finishing up the school year, finding a job, and making jewelry on commission for a couple places. For those of you who don't know, yes I do have a jewelry "business". It is called Earthen Expressions by Nicholle and I don't really consider it a business yet because I have not really made enough money to call it that. But as soon as I can get some more projects done, I plan on making a blog site for it to get it out there you know.

Well better go, lots to be done. Until next time . . . keep it real!

Old Spice Commericals

Ok if you have not seen these commericals take a little break and enjoy some really really really funny comericals!

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=owGykVbfgUE

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=LpUrz9RvuPk

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=r1Ggcf28w4A

I hope that you enjoy these as much as I do!
Until next time. . . keep it real!

Clowns

OK, many people are freaked out by clowns, even as adults. Many psychologists have attempted to identify the root cause of this fear. The most common explanation has to do with some traumatic experience from the individuals childhood.

Wal*mart, as a result of one of it's social endeavours, has been able to uncover the origination of these fears. Make sure all the lights are on in your house before you watch this video. It literally brings me to tears every time I watch it.

Click on the link below to see it!

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=hsvAj6qfmFQ

until next time . . . keep it real!

Important announcement . . .

I have come to the conclusion that some people in the psychology advising office do not know what they are talking about. Not only did they cause me undue stress, but . . . well yeah it is all because they caused me undue stress. So change of plans, I AM GRADUATING THIS MAY IN PSYCHOLOGY AS PLANNED!!!!! I am very very excited, I am going to wait for some of the snow to go away before I start getting official plans under way. I have have Candice's husband Marcel to take some pictures for my announcements and my mom will order them through Stylart . . . anyway thought I would update ya'll. Until next time. . . keep it real!

Mixed emotions ranging from ok to crumpled mess on the floor

So I just found out today that in order for me to graduate in May, as I have been planning for the last 3 years I must change my major from Psychology to interdisciplinary studies. This means that my degree will be a mix of psychology, sociology and religion. In a way I am relieved that I will be able to graduate this May as planned, but in another way I feel as if I am taking the easy route out. My Mom has been talking to me and she said things that made a lot of sense. Since my only other option to remain in the psych major is staying an additional 3 semesters, this is the smart and best choice for me. However I still feel like a slacker or an idiot, or both. I am sure given time things will change. But since the purpose of a blog is to record what is going on in your life, I can't find myself to leave this out. I hope that all will work it self out, I have been promised that I will excel in my area of study and if my Heavenly Father has promised me that, then this must be the path that I was always meant to take. Until next time . . . keep it real!

Spring has sprung . . .

Well the new year is upon us so with a full breath of air I say Happy 2010 to everyone! I do hope that everyone's new years resolution are a success. So with the beginning of a new year I am reminded of the current status of my life. I am getting ready to graduate from college in just 4 short months. Finally. It seems like my life has taken several detours to get to this moment. I am very excited for graduation and I am ready to take my next steps into the world. I only hope that after graduation is over I can find myself a good job and eventually into a good graduate school.
Another current spot I find myself in is living a life with no "significant other" to share my triumphs (and trials) with. As I attend the single's ward and see friends and previous roommates find love and eternal companions, most of the time I can't help but think "I'm just not enough." I hate feeling this way because I know that it is a lie. Yes it is hard to be alone when I so dearly want someone to be with me, but I realized that I am enough to the right person. It really brings into perspective that quote "to the world you might just be one person, but to one person you might just be the world."
This realization came about after having a conversation with a dear friend of mine concerning her own lack of relationship and she said "you know, I realized a long time ago that I will not be with anyone who does not look at me like I am his everything. Because the man I end up marrying will be my everything." It was like a slap in the face but a much needed wake up call. I can't expect everything to go the way I want it to. That is not how the world works. One day my time will come, I just have to be patient.
School is starting tomorrow and it is my last semester in my undergraduate work, whew. I will be really busy that is for sure. I work two jobs, I have an externship with a forensic phychologist and I am trying to balance 19 credits. Yikes. But I have confidence in myself, I view myself as a good student. I have great friends and a loving and supportive family that I always know I can turn to.
I wanted to leave today by posting my new years resolutions so I can see them, and others who read this can see them and encourage me to get the done (so no pressure, but if I fail it is 50% your fault):

1. Take my medications religiously
2. Post at least two new blogs a month
3. Take time out my schedule to relax and enjoy time with friends
4. Get kick-a** grades this semester
5. Go to church more regularly

Wish me luck, because I am going to need it! Until next time . . . keep it real!