Another tough run . . .

Here we go again. It's been 6 months since Grandma Mecham has passed away and I thought that we were finally going to be going toward the upside. I was wrong. On Sunday, September 18th my cousin Clint J. Mecham was killed in a car accident. I'm still in such a fog. My cousin Katie (Clint's sister) described it best: it's almost as if I'm on auto pilot. I have no feeling, I just exist. Clint was 23 . . . he had just turned 23. It's not fair all of the things that he will never have a chance to do. He had so much more to live for.

My biggest problem with loss is the fact that I analyze everything to much. My head is constantly looking for a reason. A why. A how. My head tells me that I will never understand Heavenly Father's plan for all of us, but my heart tells me that i'm not meant to. It's a constant battle between who I listen to.

Clint was such a great person and I am so grateful that he was chosen to be a part of my family. He had such a unique personality that made him so fun to be with. He was always so full of adventure. He loved to laugh and play. He was a great son, brother, cousin and friend. It's sad that he will never have a chance to live up to his potential but I am so glad that he is happy and healthy and with Grandma and Grandpa Mecham and his nieces and nephews up in the best place he could ever be. I'm grateful for the knowledge I have that families are forever. This life is not the end and I will see all those I love again.

Clint: I love you so much and i'll always miss you. Thank you for influencing my life in a way that only you could. I don't know what kind of person I would be if I were not blessed to have you in my life. I know that when my time comes, you will be on the other side waiting for all of us. What a joy that day of reunion will be. In the mean time, take care of our family on the other side for us. Take care of yourself. I love you buddy!

Until next time . . . keep it real!

September . . . seriously?!

Ok folks, let's spend a few seconds of catch up. Let's see here. . . August 30th was my baby brother's 18th birthday and also the day I took the GRE. I did better than expected but alas not quite as well as I need to. I will be retaking the GRE (for full price of $160. . . YUCK!) sometime in December. The date is TBA. So far the month of September has flown by.

Last week I started another dance season at Rhythm n' Sole except this time I am on the advanced Hip hop team. We've only met once so far, but so far so good. The Blackfoot fair just finished yesterday and I worked 2 shifts at the Mary Kay booth and got some great leads and several orders.

Today is the 10 year anniversary of the 9/11 attacks. On TV all they are showing is documentaries and interviews and everything to reflect that dark day in American History. I can't believe that after 10 years I can still remember exactly where I was when I found out. I had walked into the school moments after the first plane hit, I watched the second plane hit live on TV. Classrooms were filled with silence as people watched in shock, fear, loss and anger. I don't live in New York, I didn't lose anyone in the attacks. However my heart still goes out to those who did, to those who didn't know if they did and to the hero's that risked their lives to save strangers. God Bless America!

Until next time . . . keep it real!

Jammin' July

Hey it's me again . . . big shock. So today is a fun day for me, it's my 24th birthday and as usual I don't feel any older or wiser. Bummer. So far the day has been spent going to a blessing for my cousin's baby and sitting at home eating Chinese food and watching a movie. Fireworks will commence in approximately 3 hours. This brings us the current moment. Deciding what to do between time. I was able however to spend most of the day with my cousin Amber yesterday and it was a blast. First we cleaned my Grandma's windows (not fun but really needed since she is still in the hospital) Then we went up to I.F and went shopping and went to Olive Garden for dinner. When we got back home, even though it was late we decided to finish watching Avatar. It was the first time I'd seen it and actually it was pretty good. It almost reminds me of an adult version of that movie/cartoon "Ferngully". I don't have to work tomorrow so maybe I will kill time making some jewelry to add to the auction for the family reunion. I won't be there this year which is weird but it gives me something to do that is not what I do every week. That can be saved for tomorrow. Oh wells . . . happy 4th of July everyone! Until next time . . . keep it real!

Joy in June

So June is officially underway and has nothing major on the horizon for me. Summer has officially begun and I was able to change my schedule at work so I can have more afternoon and evenings available. This will leave me more time to work on my Mary Kay. I only have 7 weeks until Mary Kay Seminar in August for Mary Kay and I'm really excited about it.

On a grimmer note, I have officially signed up for the GRE on August 30th. The crappy part (aside from all the studying I will be doing for the next three months) is the fact that the test is at 8 a.m, I have to be at the test center at 7:30 and it's in Pocky which means I have to be leaving here at like 6:45 . . . blah. Plus the test is like 4 hours long, so I better get a good score the first time. I was lucky enough to sign up for the first revision of the GRE so it only cost $80, but if I have to take it again . . . $160 yuck.

Well folks, that's about all I got to say for now. Until next time . . . keep it real!

Manic May . . .

I can't believe that it's mid May already. Holy Crow! So just to catch up on things goings on . . . I had a dance competition on the 7th of this month at Lagoon, We performed two dances that day and placed 1st on both! Keep in mind that Lagoon was a NATIONAL competition, so it was kinda fun. We have one final recital this upcoming Saturday and then I will have my Wednesday evenings back. I'm still keeping busy with work, zumba, dance and Mary Kay. My baby brother is graduating high school in a couple weeks, YIKES!!! Then to wrap up this month, Dad's birthday is the 27th and I have to figure out what to get him. Wish me luck so I can make it through the rest of the month. Once summer gets here, my work schedule will be much better. Until next time . . . keep it real!

Broken Hearted Little Girl . . .

Yesterday, March 12, 2011 was a very dark day in my life. My Grandma Mecham passed away. I'm still dealing with mixed emotions ranging from depression to lost in the reality of it. It just happened so unexpectedly but we were all waiting for this and praying that this day would never come. It just feels like my world should not exist without Grandma here. She was the best person that I have ever known. She always encouraged me to do what ever I wanted to do and be who ever I wanted to be. As she lived her incredible life I don't think that she ever realized that the person I most wanted to be was her. Now I will never have a chance to tell her. If I were to reach one goal in my life I would love to be at least half of the amazing lady that she was. I love her more than anything, and I'll always miss her. I love you Grandma, I'll see you again someday! Until next time. . . keep it real!

The fall of an empire . . .

So in case not everyone has heard the bad news by now, Borders Inc. has officially filed for bankruptcy. With this knowledge hundreds of Borders books, music and cafe around the world are closing their doors. On this list is a store that I have grown to love and refer to it as my second home. Borders in Logan, Utah: Store number 553 is a store that I spent every single day at for three years of my life. Although I have not worked there for a little over a year now, I still feel the sadness that previous co-workers are going through. I still feel connected to each one and I hope that they are able to find jobs quickly. I have many friends (though the one's who work there I have always referred to them as my borders family) that are directly effected by this tragedy. There are far to many people to name them all, but for all the staff both past and present . . . God bless you in this time of grief. It has been an honor working with you all. Even though Borders may be gone, we are still family. I will alway remember the wonderful memories and friends that I have made in a small bookstore on main street in the tiny town of Logan, Utah. Until next time . . . keep it real!