3 month update in 2.5 (yes it can be done!)

Hey Bloggers . . . Dang I knew it had been a while I guess I just did not realize how long it had been. So let's play a game I like to call Nicholle is a slacker and now we need to play the catch up game.

January: I got a job as a PSR Specialist for Stillwaters Counseling in Blackfoot
February: Is a month in the year
March: Sister's birthday, Went to Mary Kay Career Conference in Salt Lake
April: Finally got into my middle management position (Red Jacket) with Mary Kay; Had a friend set me up on a blind date (without telling me about it until that night)

This brings us up to May: So far this month has been spent working, doing family shin digs and getting ready for Baby Nephew # 3 .  . . Little dude has yet to receive an actual name as of yet but we are about 3 weeks away from his arrival! Remember that blind date I told you about in April (see brief explanation above) yeah well it's been almost 2 months since we met and tonight we made it official .  . . we are in a relationship :) His name is Nick (yes it's Nick and Nicholle) but I'm not leaving any details on here (nosy) if you want to know then you know how to actually get a hold of me and we can catch up. Well bloggers since its officially 1 in the morning I think I'm gonna turn in. Until next time . . . keep it real!

Welcome 2012!!!

Hey bloggers! I can't believe that it's already 2012! It seems like this past year has just zoomed by. As you can all see, I totally forgot to post anything in December (oops) but I promise that nothing terribly exciting happened in December anyway. During December I basically did the same thing that I do every other day. The first couple weeks of December I was busy with Mary Kay parties and whatnot and the last 2 weeks I decided to take off (because I am an amazing boss) and do nothing! I advertised a mega blow out sale I was having and let my customers come to me. In two weeks I sold over $400 in products, not bad for sitting at home watching t.v and reading. We had a very nice and quiet Christmas here at home. I'm glad that we stayed, we were thinking about doing it at the cabin this year but everyone really just wanted to stay home. I got some clothes (as usual) a couple of books (one was a cook book though) and my pride . . . a Kickboxing bag!!! SO FREAKING EXCITED!!!

Now as we move into the first week of January, it is already going by way to fast! Tomorrow we will officially be half way through the week! What the? My baby brother Ross is moving to his college dorm on Friday and oh man is that weird to think about. It's not like he is going far away, I mean he's going to be in Pocky but still that means that it will just be me all alone with my parents. Not fun. So this year I have set some unofficial resolutions that will hopefully get me out of this position before it gets to far. I would like to really push myself and make this Grad School stuff happen. I can't sit here anymore and tell myself that one day when I have a masters or Ph.D. . . I'm going crazy here! I also really really want to push my Mary Kay even harder and increase my profits and build my all star team and get me in my red jacket and new free car! I'm still working on the steps to reach these goals but I'm sure that once I figure it out then I will hit the ground running. Here's to making 2012 the year to get moving and make things happen! Best of luck with all you do in this new year! Until next time . . . keep it real!

Meeting of Minds . . .

Hey all you bloggers out there . . . it's me! Well here it is almost midnight and as usual my mind is racing a million miles a minute. It's contents filled with nothing and everything all at the same time. It's times like this when I almost feel like I am being two different people but at the same time. It's almost as if i'm afraid to say or show what I'm thinking on the inside so my outside is just left in a blank fixated state. I'm not going to get into to much detail but let's just say that I've spent the last couple of months in the company of someone who is pretty amazing. Grant it that 99.95% of this contact was via text and the other 1.05% was spent in quality face to face time . . . It's still left an impression on me. However it's not up to me . . . because if it were I'm sure that this would end very differently. This is usually the stage when Mr. Amazing uses the "You know you are a great friend." . . . Blah. I'm trying really hard NOT to read so much into this and just let it play one day at a time but I am so afraid of landing right back on square one again with just another bruise and another disappointment to show for it. Why does life have to be so flipping complicated? Just once I would like to know exactly what my life is going to look like, where I'm going to be, what i'm going to have. But no. I guess that's asking way to much. I suppose that's kinda the point though . . . supposed to be on faith. I think that even if I had any left it wouldn't turn out the way that I hope that it would. Maybe I should just face the fact that I am the "just friends" girl . . . I have tried and I have failed (multiple times) and sure I put on a great act that it doesn't bug me. Gotta love my sense of humor defense mechanism but then certain observant people point out that i'm using it and it just feels like the cut is getting deeper. I don't know what else to do . . . I guess this just means time to move on and get busy with school so I have another distraction to deal with for the next 2 to 5 years. After that I honestly have no clue. I'm getting so tired of running but I fear that is all I will be able to do for the rest of my life. The question is though what am I running from? My fears or my self? I guess I'll never know. Until next time . . . keep it real!

Nothing new in November

Well all you bloggers and blog readers out there, I can't believe that it's already November. This year has just seemed to have fly by and as usual I have nothing majorly impressive to show for it. I'm still in the process of preparing for grad school and holy hannah that is a process that I will be so excited when it is all over and I know exactly what I'm going to be doing next year or where I will be. That's what I hate the most, waiting . . . not knowing . . . oh well, as is life I suppose. Better get going, back to my sad little lonely life of doing grad school research. I ask you . . . who wouldn't want to be me? Well until next time . . . keep it real!

Reconnecting old connections

So over the past several weeks I have been given an opportunity to reconnect with my cousin Jason. He is technically my second oldest cousin, he's 41 but we are able to get along with each other so well. Sometimes when I talk to him I completely forget the age gap between us. He was able to come down and help out with harvest for the last little bit and I had almost forgot how much fun he is to be around. Unfortunately he was not able to stay long because he had to go back to work (he's a brand inspector) but we were able to continue to reconnect via text. He is so supportive and of course so funny. He always knows what to say to make me laugh. I'm so grateful that I have someone as great as Jason in my family. Until next time . . . keep it real!

Fresh Viewpoint

So with everything that's been happening in the last several months I have decided that some things with me really need to change. I don't even know where to begin. I just know that there are some aspects in my life that could really be improved. Overall I can really improve on being a better person. I would like to be able to be more selfless and kind. Sometimes I can be so selfish and insensitive towards others. I would like to really just pull a 360 and turn my life around. I'm not very dedicated in a lot of the things I do. I would like to become some one that people can look up to. There are so many people in my life that lead such a great example for me. I wish so much that I could more like them. My cousin Collette is one such example. Her faith is so strong that I marvel at her strength. Especially with all that's been happening in the past week. I'm not sure how to start but I know that some things . . . ok a lot of things . . . really need to change. This might be the push I need to get in the right direction with the rest of my life. Until next time . . . keep it real!

Another tough run . . .

Here we go again. It's been 6 months since Grandma Mecham has passed away and I thought that we were finally going to be going toward the upside. I was wrong. On Sunday, September 18th my cousin Clint J. Mecham was killed in a car accident. I'm still in such a fog. My cousin Katie (Clint's sister) described it best: it's almost as if I'm on auto pilot. I have no feeling, I just exist. Clint was 23 . . . he had just turned 23. It's not fair all of the things that he will never have a chance to do. He had so much more to live for.

My biggest problem with loss is the fact that I analyze everything to much. My head is constantly looking for a reason. A why. A how. My head tells me that I will never understand Heavenly Father's plan for all of us, but my heart tells me that i'm not meant to. It's a constant battle between who I listen to.

Clint was such a great person and I am so grateful that he was chosen to be a part of my family. He had such a unique personality that made him so fun to be with. He was always so full of adventure. He loved to laugh and play. He was a great son, brother, cousin and friend. It's sad that he will never have a chance to live up to his potential but I am so glad that he is happy and healthy and with Grandma and Grandpa Mecham and his nieces and nephews up in the best place he could ever be. I'm grateful for the knowledge I have that families are forever. This life is not the end and I will see all those I love again.

Clint: I love you so much and i'll always miss you. Thank you for influencing my life in a way that only you could. I don't know what kind of person I would be if I were not blessed to have you in my life. I know that when my time comes, you will be on the other side waiting for all of us. What a joy that day of reunion will be. In the mean time, take care of our family on the other side for us. Take care of yourself. I love you buddy!

Until next time . . . keep it real!